SiAo D.....

erm...finished my glt,plt and company law coursework d...hehe...ms and tax only passup on next week..ohhh..feel so free nw...and feel free 2 write a post here..

eh...today really got a big turning point leh...she talk wit us leh...finally...hehe..suddenly all my stress and sadness removed..hehe..even we did not talk much..but at least from her expression,i can saw that she still feel like she not really hate us so much..but of course..not as close as last time...anyway,it's good also la...at least she willing to talk to me..that's enough for me...

and when we practice drama that time,really fun la..ahaha..the drama is definitely showing out each of our personality..hehe...so when i act also quite normal la..just act back myself..ahahah...

ohhhhnooooo...2morrow is presentation d..yerrrrrrr...such a long time i din present infront of so many people leh...i am wondering now...how was my expression???/will my legs and hands shaking???this is for sure..hehe...nevermind...i sure can overcome it...

BECAUSE..I'M THAM MAY FONG....

ya..this is me..hehe...if u say u can u can..ahahah...

just really hope that tomorrow everything will be go on smoothly..hehe...

let's introduce my partners for presentation..hehe

hehe..this is my 1st partner...hehe..TAY BOON CIAN..hehe..she will be helping me in presentation also..darling..don't worry..just speak loud and clear then enough and we sure can win ah see 1..hehe...ganbate oh..hehe..

hehe....this is my 2nd partner..TONG SOO SWAN..hehe...ok..she will be controling the powerpoint..ehh..must focus u know...dun look at kai ah...aahah..jk la...ganbate oh...

sorry everyone..this post is stuper stupid..hehe...aiyo..just to release my stress..hehe..all the best ya..THAM MAY FONG ..u sure can 1..hehe

super tiring day.....

my head now is dam feaking pain..pain till i want just use a hammer 2 broke it...haiz.....

this due to yesterday night we did company law coursework till 5.55am...then i got to sleep for just 30mins..wa...i can be superwoman d...this really broke my record...wow...can u imagine u just sleep for 30min a day...geng man...hehe...

after class,we headed to 1u for our movie~~~~~CHERMIN

DEANNA YUSOF act as MASTURA....

she was damn terrible la..bintai enuf...hahha...usually in reality also never notice she got the potential to act haunted movie..not bad...hehe..at least she did scared me&her expression ''fantastic''...

NATAHSA HUDSON act as NASRIN...

as what i know,she is a top model...erm...acting quite ok la...nothing much to comment...what i like the most was her big eyes...as u can see from the picture...scary lehhhhh....

before i watch this movie,i put very much hope on it to scare me till the max...but..as what bro kai say..quite dissapointed la...the story line actually quite ok...is about a curse to the family..erm..then the a spirit which is MASTURA with her curse was in the mirror and the mirror..erm...but what i want is the scene which can scare me till the max..actually mastura was just a spirit and not a ghost...erm...i want something like PONTIANAK HARUM SUNDAL MALAM...it's theme contain of haunted for sure and of cause love..chermin did the same thing..but not enough la..just not scary enough and not touch enough..hehe...erm..but actually this movie is more towards love..all this will happen just because of LOVE...

erm..let's talk about love..just now i suddenly chat with darling about this topic...in this world...everywhere and everything we did was just because of love...can you imagine this world without love...this world will be like dam freaking cruel... all of us will be like barbarian..and this world will not wondeful anymore...erm....actually,i dont think this world is wonderful enough for me...

erm...i'm not mean that i'm not happy with i having now...dont misunderstand me..especially mr wong..hehe...erm...i just felt that this world is chnaging too fast...in every second..definitely something is changing..but what i cannot accept the most is changing of friendship....i mean the relationship betweeb friends....throughout my life...nothing can really bothering me,except my friends...no matter how busy or how moody i was..if they really need me by their side or anything i can do for them...i sure will try my best for them..i willing to sacrifice for them as what i can la..but sometimes,is really hard for me to really take someone as my best friend..i'm quite a choosy person..hehe...erm...bit sarcastic also...ahahah...but..but..how can u treat us like this????we really did nothing...haiz....haiz...anyway..just as what darling say...we already do what we should do..and sometimes is really impossible for us to handle and guarantee everything go smoothly and in our control...we are not god...god also human ma..god also unable to do something..hehe..erm....i realised that if we really cant do nothing..what we can do is just accept the fact and face it and let it be...cause we really cant do anything to chnage it...nothing...anyway..i still nee dback to my life as usual...at least i still got someone i really care and love accompany me now..and that is enough for me...more than enough...

dear,darling,loupo,suipo,bro kai,honey,dia & my lovely family..10s..xoxo

StReSS.....hELP!!!!hElP!!!!

AHHHHHHHHH..........AHHHHHHHH........HELP!!!!PLEASE HELP ME............GAU MENG AH....

sobosb...why must this happen to me...i hate coursework...no1 can help me....i started my law coursework since 12pm till now...now already 10pmmmmm......ohh..my mind just full of law....the entire day i was just stay at home and try to finsh it up...but the result is...i am still at question1 ..what the.........my head was dam freaking pain..my face full of pimples....so ugly...no face to go out d...haiz...really suffering now...i really felt regret to study accounting..but except accounting,what else i can study???haiz...it's toooooo late...yerrrr...this whole week i think i going to be black face often...i need to say sorry to all my friends in case u all really saw me black face all the time..because i was too stresssss.....really have no mood to entertain u all..must wait till the following week i think...only then my mood can be recover..ahahaha...forgive me as such a emotional friend...

nevermind...last three sem i also can struggle out from coursework..this time for sure i can victory tooo..hehe...this is what college life is...i should not blame anyone...what i can do is overtake all this problem...i always remember myself with this quote.....

~ ~ ~ IF U THINK U CAN,U CAN~ ~ ~

ahahahha...this is a quote which i knew from a hong kong drama series...hehe..actually is broken english..hehe...it's really funny but it also inspire me alot lo...it reminds me must always think positive...if u keep on say u wil fail..........u will fail for sure...hehe...

i think one of the reason that make me moody now was dear was back to hometown d...soooooo miss him la...super duper miss him la....cannot chat with him...haiz...

now only diploma...i also nearly kill by all those coursework d..how am i suppose to be when i in degree??????acca?????omg...it's really a mystery for me...i really dont know...that;s why future is unpredictable..hehe..just let it be..hehe...omg...i should stop writing la...cause i rally duno what i am writting...forgive my sot-ness..hehe

miSerAbLE

In this week,everyday after class i sure took a nap of more than 2hours for sure...really duno what happen 2 myself d...erm..actually,duno since when i seldom take a short nap after back from college...last time,no matter how tired i am,i sure can struggle till night only sleep.but now,everyday after back from college,the first thing i did was......SLEEP...another weird thing is yesterday i went to bed at 10.30pm....10.30????10.30?????it already broke my record of the earliest time i went to bed....ohhh...just really duno what happen to my body system...what a big change suddenly...erm...am i really exhausted of laughing too much with my sisters??or am i too happy cause i'm in love with dear now???ya...bit...but i think the most bigger problem is I AM TOO STRESS.......haiz...really duno why,what make me stress ahhhh????glt,plt n tax oso kaudim...still left law,ms and ms presentation...haiz...

next what i want to say mostly is about 2 of my college friend....i think u all should know who i am talking now...since they know me and dear together,they keep joke on us and make fun of us..ok...it's noraml la actually,maybe they need someone to bring fun to them...but after time pass,they not only joke on us,but also my loupo n my brother..ohh..pity for them la..cause they are really not couple...and they not love each other..n they keep make fun of them...do u know that how should my loupo face my brother?????it will totally make them embarassing...the point is the way they make fun of is too over lo...i duno how to describe..but if u were me,u sure will feel the same....today,while we walking behind them,they keep looking at us and talk talk talk...as u all know..they will do something very obviously,for sure i know they were talking about us..this really make me felt bad...why????because we did nothing...because we are friends..how can they treat us like this...are we did something wrong???maybe i am wrong or i too perasan,but it's really spoilt my mood lo and darling felt the same too...really duno what happen to them..haiz...luckily,after i said out here,i feeling better...hope i can find out the answer soon...

horrible..horrible...

omggggg..today was so dam freaking terrible la...i nearly cannot blogging now..hehe...duno what happen to my lovely HONEY(my laptop..hehe)i cannot start my windows..i tried for an hour...omg...i was really scared..if anything happen to my honey...my heart will broke..my purse will oso broke..hehe...luckily..it's back to normal..so i can blogging now..hehe..

erm..actually,nothing much to say..just felt like my pressure getting releases bit..hehe...took a nap at afternoon..somemore rain dam heavily..the weather is super duper nice for sleep..hehe...however,i still need to complete some of my coursework..presentation...aiyo..almost 2years i didn't act drama la...haiz..such a big pressure..if act lousy,sure kena scold by TIM..haiz...BIG PRESSURE..BIG PRESSURE...SAVE ME..HELP..HELP..I WANT RUNAWAY..I WANT RUNAWAY TO REDANG..I WANT RUNAWAY FROM SEGI COLLEGE..I WNAT RUNAWAY FROM COURSEWORK.

hehe..sorry,i think i really stress till siao d..just want to release my stress here only..hehe...

心情日记

雨后的早晨,刚醒来的我也变得特别感触..突然间想写下自己的心情..所以就打开电脑..用华语来呈现出最真实的自己..也只有这样,我的心情才得以抒发...
近来这两个星期所发生的一切,对我来说真的就像一场梦..为什么这么说??一直以为自己错过了,就算当自己觉悟想珍惜时,一切已来不及了,也只好认命了..可是在要放弃时,总是有渺小的希望浮现在我眼前..谁知道..因为自己的一句小小的问候,却带来了大大的转变..顿时觉得自己变得好幸福..多了一个人关心自己...而我也悄悄的在为他改变..也在享受着恋爱的滋味..真的好甜..好贴心..

可是...为什么自己却还是那么不确定呢?我还在犹豫什么?朋友也常跟我说..我真的找到对的人..他真的很忍让我..很体贴..他是一个很活跃的人,也参与很多活动,相对的,我们能在一起的时间也很少..可是我能做什么呢??我不能这么自私的要求他为我减少活动..我不想他因为我跟我在一起要改变什么..所以就算听到他说要为我减少活动,我也不知该开心或伤心..我害怕他因为我做一些自己不喜欢的事...他总说不关我的事..

这个不说..我总觉得自己还在怀疑..怀疑什么呢??为什么我还在犹豫??身边的朋友都跟我说,我们一定会幸福到永远..可是我总觉得幸福对我来说是那么遥远呢??总是很讨厌自己..讨厌自己不懂得珍惜..当得不到时总是后悔,但拥有时却不懂得珍惜..真的很讨厌自己..其实自己真的有尝试过,可是却不懂得怎么表达出来...

我的个性...总是这样..总是表现得若无其事,可是谁又知道在我心里却是那么的在乎..我总爱隐藏自己..就算开心,伤心,难过,喜悦都不想让别人猜透..也许这是我保护自己的方法吧..也因为这样..别人总觉得我什么都不在乎..无论自己多么难过,都选择放在心里..也因为这样促使了我爱往坏的方向想..也因为这样..别人总误会我的心情..当自己表现出来时,一切已太迟了..我自认自己不善于表达..也许自己的个性太强了..除此之外,如果我不坚强,身边的朋友又由谁来保护呢??就算他们再懦弱是坚强的那一个..引导他们..至少让他们有一个依靠..其实我也很想懦弱..可是我却打开不了我的心门..

其实我很想跟他说..我真的不在乎别人的眼光或闲言闲语..一开始真的会,那时因为我不了解他..而且之前也误会他的为人.可是现在我知道他是那么的好...但我又表现不出我的不在乎..真的很讨厌自己...可恶的是..我竟然对他说..不要对我投入那么多的感情..不然的话..他会伤得很深..我是在暗示他我没那么爱他吗??不是..只是我对我们的未来不太明确..不肯定..未来的确充满了未知数..世界在变..人也在变...

唯一可做的,就是珍惜..他曾对我说..珍惜眼前人...也就是他这句话,让我不在怀疑了..对..虽然我们对未来都不肯定..但是我们只要珍惜现在拥有的一切以及和他的每一分每一秒...就算以后一切都变了..我也不会遗憾..因为我珍惜过与拥有过..

不远 BY ELVA

突然那几秒
好像天使飞过
看著你微笑
那段时间都禁止
远远的注视
仿佛爱情就该如此
为所爱的人
在我心里留一个位置
虽然那前方模糊
可是想法清清楚楚
比所有人都渴望你能幸福
我站在你不远处
默默地为你祝福
把对你的爱藏起来
放你去寻找追逐
我站在爱的不远处
不在乎守候多辛苦
当你孤单时想起
我那是我最大的幸福
对你的期待
每段都有记载
每一个眼神
我都想要收藏起来
不害怕寂寞
不止一样没人明白
已经快忘了
当初迁就在这里等待
虽然那前方模糊
可是想法清清楚楚
比所有人都渴望你能幸福
我站在你不远处
默默地为你祝福
把对你的爱藏起来
放你去寻找追逐
我站在爱的不远处
不在乎守候多辛苦
当你孤单时想起我
那是我最大的幸福
我站在你不远处..哦
我站在你不远处
默默地为你祝福
把对你的爱藏起来
放你去寻找追逐
我站在爱的不远处
不在乎守候多辛苦
当你孤单时想起我
那是我最大的幸福

THIS IS THE SOng that i recently listening..every song that i post here was actually touching me by their lyrics..it says a girl willing to wait for a guy that she loves eventhough the guy already in love with another girl.Besides that,the girl willing to stay beside the guy even he did not notice her feeling and love towards him...it's dam touching...