你总习惯听我发脾气
你总习惯原谅我的任性
我想这爱情是那里出错
我最常对你说对不起
你最常说没关系
不是我不爱你 别瞎猜
不是我想放弃 只是很怕会辜负了你
我没有你眼中那么完美
不是我不相信 有未来
不是我想逃避 只是会担心
有一天你会生气 我的个性
因为越爱越想要呼吸
只怕对不起你会变成伤害
(如果真的伤害了你 对不起)
你最爱聆听我的声音
刻意回避那传来的耳语
你常常要我静静的看着你
你说你不容易会灰心
我其实没有信心
first of all,i have to say sorry to you...yup..is you..you should know who i'm talking now...i'm sorry for all those overdoing...in REDANG...in P.J....or anytime that i had hurt you...sorry...i really did not realised that what i have done will make you feel that bad...yesterday,i really dunno what to do..what to say..honestly...in that time,my mind was fullfiled of this evil word 'LET GO'....cause i think the only problem was you and my sisters....it was really hard for me to make any decision...for me...honestly...my sisters are so damn important for me....i wont deny...cause i'm proud of them for being such a good friend to me...i wont easily open my heart to anyone...but to them i can...and we have been through so many hardships and happiest moment in my life...i really cannot leave them..not even one second...no matter even our friendship will change in one day...i will still care for them...maybe u will say i'm stupid...i'm a fool..but thats me...i knew what i had answered would make you really hurt and disappointed..but i cant tell lie...thats my feeling..i told u this cause i care for you...i wnat you to know what is deep in my heart...do you know...when u said i wont be by ur side when you are down you know how sad and how disappointed i am...cause in your mind,i'am such a person...well...maybe i'm the one who disappointed youu first...since that second,i already prepared of what would you said...so i cried...do youu know why i cried???maybe you will think i'm regret of what i did...no...i cried cause i scare youu will say out just let go this relationship...i really cant...but if this is the only way...i'm willing to accept...but...youu din said that....what you have said i dont wanna to mention here...but i will always remember in my mind..do you know why i keep asking you whether is it worth or not...cause i really felt that i'm not worth for you to do all this for me...i'm not worth...cause i dont really appreciate you...i hate myself...i hate myself for duno what to do...i really so confuse...ask me to choose between friends and you,i rather go to hell....i cant lost both...i really cant...maybe some other girls will definitely let go their friends...and they will say how foolish i am...but thats me...anyway,i will try to maintain between you and them....i will try my very best...trust me...
secondly,i need to say sorry to all my sisters and tou dai...sorry for being not update my blog in this few days after back from redang....1st..i dont have any photos in my hand...i will only get it maybe next week or next next week...i must wait for all those photos then only illustrate each moment i spend in redang to all of you...without photos...without good illustrations...sorry....2ndly,after back from redang,i have been botherd by some of my own problems...my mind is not clear enough...cant make any decision..cant think of what should i do...really frustrated....i'm really sorry...just hope you all can be patient for my redang post...
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